In my eyes, you are not "the problem". You are not a disorder or label.
You are not crazy.
The problem is "the problem". Bipolar Disorder is a problem affecting your life. You are in a relationship with the problems in your life. They impact how you think, feel, do, and respond. You have the ability to influence them and choose how you will respond and participate with them in your life.
Together, we will develop an understanding of how Bipolar Disorder and other problems affect you. Identify what in your life is supporting Bipolar Disorder etc. We'll explore the times when Bipolar Disorder could have gotten the upper hand, but with your strength and resiliency, it failed.
With this understanding we can begin to construct the life that you prefer. We can harness your strength and resources to develop and practice tools that can change your relationship with the problem.
But when problems and Bipolar Disorder feel like a mountain....
And you can't see around them....
You may lose hope....
I'll hold hope for you.